~~In the shoes of the “ugly side of arranged marriage”~~
He: I love you
She: don’t do this to me.
H: don’t do what?
S: don’t tell me you love me.
S: because I am getting married to a complete stranger whom I do not know.
H: but why?
S: because that’s how it’s supposed to be.
H: no, it’s not.
S: I NEVER have a choice.
H: you always have.. You just need to see it. Are you happy?
S: I don’t know.
H: if you don’t know, it means you’re not happy
S: why did you take so long?
H: take so long for what?
S: to confess
H: confess what?
S: I hate YOU!!
H: I NEVER confessed that.. I don’t hate you
S: you know what I mean… You ALWAYS know.. Don’t play with me now… Puhleeasee…
H: aww baby, sorryyy
S: you NEVER called me baby before..
H: I never told you I love you before.
S: this was the confession I was talking about.
H: I know… I ALWAYS know… For once, I just wanted to hear you say that…
S: I have told it countless times before.
S: I typed it and deleted.
H: why baby?
S: I thought you would never love me.. I thought I am not enough.. I am inadequate.. Not the prettiest.. Not the sharpest.. No one has ever truly loved me and then you knew how messed I am from inside… No one wants a mess.. So….
H: I think I fell in love with your weirdness… I was in denial.. I didn’t want to believe that there can still be a gift left for me… But baby I had all the signs for you..
S: don’t say baby please.
S: why don’t you refute? Why don’t you ask why?
S: I hate YOU
H: I know, you don’t.. I never refute you because I LOVE YOU..
S: I will cry now.
H: it’s okay… You’re going to lose one of the BEST person EVER.. You can cry.
S: how can YOU joke now?
H: because I want to be YOUR smile
S: I LOVE YOU too.. I always had.. Even before I knew who you were… But we’re not meant to be together… We will be the untold story in the greatest love tale EVER..
S: come to my marriage.. I want you as my friend…i want to kiss our love the final goodbye before I begin a fresh story.. I don’t want to lie to the one I am supposed to love but perhaps I never will.. Be there for me puhleeasee.. It’s going to rip you apart, but I want this one last gift..
S: no questions?
H: because I LOVE YOU
S: I can’t do this.
H: me too
S: what can’t you do?
H: the same thing as you
S: but I never told
H: and still I always know
S: I have to let you go… I have a family too.. But
H: no… No but, no if… Your heart will heal.
S: and what about you?
H: i’l be second time unlucky.
S: I am sorry
H: me too.
S: me more…
H: I will be there for your wedding baby.. That day, I will be only a friend… But today one last time, I want to tell you I LOVE you..
I love you like the stars
That burn to brighten the night
I LOVE you like the birds
That always fly high
I love you like words
Love the author who writes
I love you in ways
The eyes sparkle and shine
I love the silly questions
I love the infectious smile
I love the wrong belief
I love the random talks
I have been in love with you
For times longer than I realized
And yet forget all of this
Because this my friend is life
and soon you would be someone’s wife
brighten his dark night
with your silly smile
I will always be the guy
On Whom you can rely
yes, baby THIS is the final goodbye!!!!
There’s nothing I can do
But I LOVE YOU TOO
not this time
But in my next life
You and I will complete
The story that I wished was mine
Footnote: not all arranged marriages are like this.. I live in a family of 21 members and every single one of them had arranged marriage.They are blissfully in love and happily married. I will do another post on a happy arranged marriage soon but this is one side of the story too.. sometimes, some people are chained to a marriage that will NEVER work.. they marry because that’s what society wants.. how right is that? but, then i think i wrote this post because I just remembered the line from the Fault In Our stars
LIFE IS NOT A WISH GRANTING MACHINE