I’ve been away from the blog for long and I plan to come back in “my style” in October, but this post is because of a certain someone who just made me realize how much I missed cuddling my blog baby. I haven’t named you coz I don’t know if you would love being named here but I am sure you must be reading it and smiling and see I told you I’m psychic :P and c’mon who doesn’t likes being the HIDDEN HERO :P Thank you Loads.
THE GUYS LIKES TO BE NAMED, GOOD THING TOO (because it makes me feel that I am no as insane as I truly am and people are actually alright telling others that Heyy, I know the fool :P, kidding I am awesome, no well, I don’t know, I think the bracketed part turned out to be longer than it should)
THANK YOU UTKARSH (Capslock intentional :P)
“What are you reading?”
“Why MY? You always called it our journal”
“Called, but I don’t call it so now”
“Why? Is there a problem?”
“I don’t know,”
“What’s wrong babe”
“I don’t write about you as much as I did. It gives me an unsettling feeling. I am scared; we are never going back to where we once stood.”
“Why did it sound like a goodbye?”
“I don’t know, but please stay. Stay when I push you away because so far, everyone I pushed away, leaves. Sometimes, when they leave, they take away the reason for my smile. You are more than the reason for my smile to me. You are MY SMILE. I don’t know what I will do if you too leave me away. Regardless of how many goodbye notes I’ve written, there’s something about you that makes me STAY and every night I hope, you think the same.”
“Now, did this sound like a hello?”
“You know, you make me laugh when all I want to do is curl up and cry and ruin my eyes so bad that I turn blind.”
“Aw, why would you do that. Look at us, we are together. I’ve you, you’ve me; what is amiss?”
“I do not know.”
“Is this your new favorite word?”
“Don’t leave me please. I will write you a goodbye note, but remember every goodbye is another hello. Please turn my goodbyes to hello. Every time, I write an end, meet me again; start a new chapter and let us waltz to the same tune, once more.”
“Promise. Promise. Promise.”
“You do realize that you’ve promised me that your promise to me is a promise you cannot break.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too”
“I love goodbyes. Do you know why?”
“Yes, because every time you write one, we end up saying I love you.”
“I love you again.”
“I think, I do so too.”
“Are you angry?”
“Why would I be?”
“I and my mood swings.”
“I will bear because you are my right in the world of….”
And then she woke up to an empty room, a vacant heart and a heart that hurt from too many memories. It was time she should stop writing on goodbyes and hello because sometimes, you just need to turn the damn page.
In another world, someone else woke up unaware that someone, somewhere was thinking of him.
Love, sometimes, is the biggest tragedy in itself but it still makes you smile, even in your nightmares.
Who knows, there may be some chapters still to be written.
P.S. I will probably write a sequel to this because I LOVE HAPPY ENDINGS.
P.P.S. I got muddled with the font coloring.. Pls bear :P